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Haha, this time not bloggin anything, but here, watch this video... It was sent to me by my friend, Ben... Quite... Disappointing with those students... =(

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Blueserver gathering...

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Hehe, I am here again, not even 24 hours since I last update... Well, partly because I am free right now, erm, I mean I am not doing anything right now, when I am supposed to do something, lol. Oh well... I guess I forgot to mention that last week, on Tuesday, I met up with a few of the Blueserver Admin Team guys... At MidValley. =)

I didn't reall expect to see any of them, really... I am a shy person, I am quiet, I am not as sociable as you think... Well, Last week Tuesday, I got no class that day, so I stay at home and did some stuff... Around evening, I bathed and went to darling's house to fetch him, then we went to Mid Valley, to see all the BS Admins and Mods, hehe...

Well, stucked in jam for a while and finally reached MidValley around 7.00pm, only Matt and Mega is there when we reached... We waited for a while, Denster, Fishy, Omni and Phoebe came together... So, we went to McD to sit down and have a drink, while waiting for the rest of them. x3oN joined us after a while, finally, Kaelz and Hakky came... We chatted a while, intro ourselves, haha... We had trouble deciding where to eat for dinner... So, kind of discussing about it... Finally, we went to Pizza Hut... After ordering, we chatted... x3oN and Mega was quiet... Haha... I didn't really talk too... Was busy looking at darling, hehe... Well, as I said, I am a shy person... =p We had our dinner, chit chat about lots of stuff... And before we leave, we took a photo... =)

After that, we have to leave the restaurant because they were closing already... So, we went to the arcade, walk around... Well, I don't really play in arcades so I watched them... After a while, around 10.30pm, my mom called and told me to come home early... Well, I have no choice and darling needs to go back early too.. So, we left them early... I wanted to send darling home but he said he can take the train... Well, before parting... we have some fun... XD

I went back home after dropping darling in the station... Tired after all the events, feeling so restless... That night, darling missed the train, haha... So he took cab home, silly... That's another night for me... I enjoyed myself, I am happy to meet everyone, hehe... Maybe we should meet some other time... =p

Gatherings are always full of surprises, right? XD

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My Busy Life

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Hi again! After a week or so... I just came back from Genting Highlands, hehe... Went there to visit my relatives tonight with my family... According to my dad, they are my... well, uncle and aunties from China, ahha! They came to visit Singapore and Malaysia on a tour so my dad asked us to pay them a visit... Well, it has been sometime since I been to Genting, it's still cooling there, but tonight I didn't really do much stuff there... Reach Genting around 7.30pm or 8.00pm then met with my relatives, went for dinner, chit-chat a while, walk around First World Plaza and took a few photos... Then finally, came home with a Starbucks Coffee, hehe...

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Well, let's go back to a week before... I has an assignment submission and a test last week, really exhausted. =S Well, I managed to finish up my PD assignment on Thursday, I wouldn't say it is the best, however, that's all we can come out with in just a week. After completing the assignment, I studied for FCM test for the whole night... I was kind of stressed up, well... Emo-ing the whole night... T_T In the end, the test was tough, yea... There are questions which really make me goes @_@ I guess I can only hope for the best for now... >_<" After that, finally the weekend arrives... However, I have no time to rest at all! MSB Mid-Point submission is on Monday... I hate the lecturer and also this subject very much... Well, I did not really start doing my MSB until last night, haha, managed to finish within few hours... Only slept 2 hours last night, so I am planning to sleep earlier today, hopefully... That's pretty much about my college life, more assignments coming up this week and next week, tougher ones this time... Argh!!!

Put aside stressful college workload, I have Blueserver matters to handle. Being a GM is not easy at all, well, many people told me to take a rest, I do not have to put in so much effort and time for it. However, to me, it's already part of my life, I really want to make it the best place to be... Everyday, I see a lot of feedbacks on the server and me, basically, those feedbacks were never positive ones... Haha, I wonder why... Well, I am still be able to cope with it, and I guess I have trained my self to get used to this kind of situations. There are a few problems in the Banlist Team, well, basically communication problems... I hope I can solve those matters as soon as possible... Lucky, my darling is here all the time, helping me and supporting me... Thanks! I love you, EdeNz...

Speaking of my darling, we just had a wonderful weekend together, aside from all those stressful and unhappy stuff... I went to meet darling on Saturday, had fun, hehe, you can read our love stories and our blog, http://angelnstar.blogspot.com, however, be warned that you might not like what you are going to see... So, the choice is yours... My darling also came to meet me on Sunday, to have dinner with me because I was kind of stressed that time... Thanks a lot, because of you, I am able to finish my assignment, you really gave me motivation... Love you so much... and missing you badly now... *Muacks* Hehe...

Didn't notice it was 2.30am already... I guess I got to go. Before that, just wanna say... I love you, EdeNz.

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Busy week!

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Kinda long since I come here eh? Well, too many things to handle nowadays... Next week will be another hectic week again because I have PD assignment submission, SEP assignment 3 submission MSB mid point and FCM Test... >_< Well, maybe I will something something else after my projects are done... Now back to my PD assignment first... 2500 words seems easy yet so hard...

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Malaysians?

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I am here again, there are many things I wish to tell, but I just don't know how to express myself, so I chose not to say anything... Perhaps, that's the reason I don't really have much close friends, I don't really mind... I mean that's me, or do you think I should change? Puzzled.

Well, on Friday morning, during my journey to college, as usual I was listening to Mix FM and the DJs mentioned something about Malaysian's attitude - like to give lame excuses when they did something wrong and push the responsibility away. As an example, if you are late to work or to school, who will you blame? The traffic? Or some other parties? Well, whoever or whatever it is, you are still late, it will not change the fact that you did something wrong. Isn't it better if you just apologize and continue with your tasks? When I heard about this, Blueserver players came into my mind, I see different appeal cases everyday, got tired answering them, so my question here is, is it really only Malaysians have this kind of attitude? There are always cases where players complained that they were disconnected due to some external factors and got banned, and they scolded us, insulted us for not checking it out and banning them, here's a question, no matter what reason that got you disconnected, aren't you spoiling a game and wasted 9 players' time? Don't you feel guilty about it? Why treat the case as if you were right and GMs are actually wrong? Maybe our mentality is really different from others... I don't know... Because, even myself sometimes do try to push the blame away... :S

My life is busy as usual, too much time spent on Blueserver, maybe I should just quit? I have thought about it so many times, but something is holding me back... I felt I should solve all the problems and perfect the Banlist System even if I want to leave, somehow I really want to do it, time and people is the things I need now... If one day, I really manage to make the system perfect and running smoothly, that's the time I will disappear from Blueserver, hope this time comes soon... =)

Hmm, messy post, but nevermind... I just want to type those stuff out... =) Laterz.

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Parents doesn't seems to understand...

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Here I am again! I don't really know what to write but there's something bothering me in my mind right now, or I should say, since yesterday night...

I came home home last night at 12.00am, after meeting up with my darling. I knew it was pretty late but I only get to see my darling every weekend, I really want to spend more time with him. So, as expected, my parents were not happy about me going out till late... Well, I do know they are worried about me, but sometimes, I really wish they don't care about me because I want freedom. Before I went to bath, my mom came to me and kind of complained to me, saying she doesn't like what I am doing right now. She asked me a lot of questions about EdeNz, I wonder how did she know about him... As I was really tired, I don't have the mood to entertain her and answer all kinds of stupid questions, so I just ignored or simply answer her...

Then she asked me a question, "Why must you have a boyfriend? Even without a boyfriend, you will not die right?" I was speechless... I wonder if having a boyfriend is something wrong... Do she really thinks that I want a boyfriend because I want it? There are a lot more stuff that she told me, I don't really pat attention to it, but it really hurts when she said that I am stupid to actually do so much things for a guy. She asked me why I like a guy younger than me and cannot even come and find me. I felt insulted, really. If she were not my mom, I would have scolded her back. Do she still want to treat me as a 3-year-old girl that doesn't know how to think? I know what I am doing, I know what love means, I know my limits and I did not do anything wrong... So, what's wrong with loving someone? and spending time with him? I really don't know...

This is not the first time, she doesn't really like my ex-bf as well. I am really clueless why. Maybe to her, guys getting close to me is to get advantage of me? But, she should trust me, I am going to be 21 in less than 2 months, I know how to think myself. Well, maybe you would tell me that my mom is just worried and concern about me, sometimes I just wish my parents stay out of this like how they handle stuff all these while, it's not like they care about me for the pass 20 years... Why intrude my relationships now? T_T

If anyone happens to read this, don't worry too much about it, I just want to rant. =P I am perfectly fine, I know how to deal with stuff and I won't let anything affects me. =) This entry might be a little boring, since I only mentioned about these... Oh well, I will write again soon, maybe if there's something interesting to write about few days later, who knows...

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Moments of Love

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Here I am again... It has been some time since I actually update my blogs, been kind of busy with assignments and stuff... Well, at least now I have more free time... =)

Firstly, let's talk about college stuff... I have got all my results for the last semester exam, well, it was pretty bad, I was quite disappointed in myself because I do think I did not put in enough effort to get what I aimed for. Maybe it's too late to regret now, somehow, I just wish I can redo the entire thing all over again... =( Well, people usually tell me not to be so sad or disappointed, someone else is having more problems that you... However, the feelings of not getting what I am aiming for and trying to work hard for... just stuck in my mind... Well, the only way I can patch my mistakes up is to score 15, which is also the highest grade, in every single paper that I am taking this semester. This is my last chance but it's near impossible, if not totally, to get what I want due to the subjects. =/ Sad huh? I can only blame myself...

Put aisde college, Blueserver has taken up a big space in my life. I have spent quite some time trying to make it a better place, I don't think I have succeed in anything now, I am actually creating new problems, sad... Sometimes, I do get demotivated, I want to give up and leave the server just like that, I am sure there is someone out there much capable of handling stuff... Too bad, my feelings is stopping me from doing that, I love this place, I really hope it will last forever, because Blueserver is a very meaningful place for me, and I think, for a lot of people as well. The biggest challenge for me now is to get motivated and start working on my stuff, improving what I am doing and try to think of ways to improve. Motivation is what I need most, just not the right time now...

Lastly, the most important thing in my life, love. I have officially broken up with my ex-bf at 30 June 2006, well, I do felt sad... However, I can't hide my feelings and pretend nothing happened, I am in love with someone else... This person is really special, he attracts my heart and stole it from me... EdeNz, I love you. =) This new page of my love life begins today, I had fun with him the whole day, I am really happy... To know more about EdeNz and me, visit a blog about us at Angel & Star - Moments of Love =)

There are too many things happening everyday, I can't really remember the details... I know I am happy right now, I know what I need to do, so I am out here for now...

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